silent running

Those who know me [0],will know that I am a inherently emotional man,too much so.The intensity of these emotions is leaving me in utter despair,self loathing,just because I crave company.PERHAPS i EXPECT TOO MUCH OF OTHERS,or that is ,too little,the end result seems to be ,more misery.How do I temper these painful feelings ,so that I can cope with these distressing outbursts?Difficulty here being,I am too close ,to detach myself, and be rational.Today ,is such an example,rejection ,is something which cuts me to the quick,having only a few contacts , I try to be careful when trying to befriend someone,not careful enough ,it would seem.Never be fooled by those who would have you believe they are totally open,or is it just me that gets taken in.The end result ,leaves me hurt ,cynical, and not a little bitter,not qualities I value in myself,but still present .Two years ago ,I was just starting to come out of my shell,opening up,expressing my experiences,perhaps thats where I belonged?No, I cannot be that person again,no matter how I FEEL NOW ,IT WILL PASS.Where I go ,who knows,its a daunting pros,lots of doors have closed ,there must new ones to explore,right now I am tired of deceit ,lies and cold people who claim to care ,back to isolation.